Thanksgiving Break!

I am so glad that it is Thanksgiving break.

At the time of this writing, I am in a vehicle packed with 8 college students on the freeway heading south. Heading down to Woodardsville where we will stay for the 6 days that comprise the Thanksgiving break.

For the past two weeks I've really been struggling to keep my head above the school work waters. By God's wonderful grace I have been able to hol

d things together until now, but I'm not sure how much longer I could have lasted. I know that God planed for this break and He's going to use this time to allow me to recharge and refresh.

There are several factors that have made these past two weeks quite stretching. First, Greek really seemed to pick up the pace and it's been taxing to devote the time to understand the lessons and learn the vocab. Not to mention the fact that we meet 4 times a week, so basically, I am having to spend probably about an hour of my study time every evening working on Greek homework alone. At least I am also taking Logic, which takes almost no time to study for. Logic has a really nice setup because if you have an "A" in the class, then you don't have to turn in the homework, which is super nice because, I can understand the concepts when he gives the lectures in class, so I don't need to spend any time outside of class doing Logic problems.

The other thing that has been taxing on my time has been work. I'm not really sure quite how it happened, but for the past 4 weeks I've had consistently more than 20 hours. This past week I had 31, and the week before that I had a record breaking 37 hours. (I have a different blog post dedicated to that week.) But the point is, I've had a lot of work recently, which has been taking away from my time and my sleep.

Last week was one of the hardest week that I've been through in a very long time. I honestly never even considered suicide, but I did think about how easy it would be to just go down to west gate--that's where public safety keeps all their equipment and stuff--and taking one of the guns and just simplifying my life by a great deal. And I think about how wonderful it would be to be in heaven, and not have to worry about school, or relationships, or anything anymore. I would be in heaven, and I would see Jesus, and I would be able to sing wonderful praises to his name. I would be able to sing with a voice far more beautiful that I could even imagine. It would be amazing.

But then I stop myself, and get back to work. Knowing that if God wanted me to take the easy way out then he would allow me to somehow die in a tragic accident or something. I definitely would not take my own life.

But, to the point. I was feeling really tired, frustrated, and just plain feeling down one evening when I was coming back from studying at the library. And on my way in I checked the night mail pile like I always do, not that I expect anything, but just incase. And to my surprise I had a small note. So, I opened it and it was a note from Sarah, just telling me that she was praying for me, and that she knew that I had been having a hard time with work and people and other stuff. I seriously almost cried when I read that note. I plopped down in my chair at my desk and prayed to God and thanked Him for the amazing friends that He has blessed me with.

That one short note brightened my whole week. Just to know that I'm not going it alone.

So yeah, I've been burned out, and this break is going to be an amazing time to recharge.

Looking forward to it!